Poetry❤️

If I Disappeared Today😔👉

If I disappeared today Would it make any difference? Would you think of me any more than you do? Would I finally be on your mind? Because I know that We value the people who’re dead, More than the ones who’re alive. So maybe if I’m gone, Maybe if I wasn’t there anymore, You’d finally see me. You’d worry. And I’d finally have a place. Not the way I’d like to, But the way it was meant to be. We miss the things we’ve had Only after we’ve lost them. So why aren’t you missing me? We could’ve been anything but this. All we had to do was to trust and wait. But we chose to run and escape. So, will you come and take me home? To the place, I belong? We could dance in the rain. If we weren’t stuck to our chains.

Sometimes, I can’t help but think that Maybe we were meant to be apart. How I wish I could believe this. Because I’m still stuck Hoping for a restart. To do it differently. Sounds pathetic, I know. I’m a coward. I can’t run away. I can’t find peace. But I want to know If you’re okay knowing I’m gone. It kills me, Because I already know the answer. And yet, I want to believe otherwise A fool’s hope? No, a self-inflicted curse.

If I disappeared today, I’d just be delaying the inevitable. I’d break. I’d never be able to face myself. So I won’t run. I’ll still be around. Silently fighting my battles. Not for you, But for myself. I’ll stay so that I know that I didn’t take the easy way out. And that I bore through everything, Even though it was killing me. And maybe, Amidst all this chaos, I’ll eventually learn to find peace And start over. Like I should. Like I deserve to. It was good while it lasted. I’m still carrying the broken pieces. But it’s time to bury them. I won’t vanish today. I won’t run away. But I hope we never meet again. I hope we never meet again.