Life lesson📚✨️

"Is growing up meant to hurt this so much?" Is growing up meant to hurt this much? It's been a while since I thought about my childhood memories. I can't remember the memories yet. I want to go back to where I was once happy. I wish my younger self didn't want to grow up so fast. I hope she can enjoy things by making her happy and enjoying her childhood era. By the time mys birthday comes, I'll be getting older. I can't run away from the fact that I'm getting older by 3 fact that I'm getting older by 3 months. The more I grow, the more I grow tired of everyone. How people act and how they treat me-literally, I have 0% energy to argue with anyone. I do silently cut people off for my mental health. I'm getting older, and I think I'm aging well. I wish someone had told me I'd be doing this by myself. How ironic that the lyrics hit differently? I really wish some- one had told me I'd be doing this myself. Why is growing up so painful? Does it have to be this way? I never wanted to be born this way anyway, and eventually, I stopped trying, hoping, and believing that things would get better. Everything I was afraid of happening happened. getting older "Is growing up meant to hurt this so much?"

As the days went by, I really did get better, but sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again. "I think about disappearing sometimes." The line on To My Youth by BOL4: "The whole world seemed so dark, I cried every night." This line hits differently. and the next one, "Will my mind feel at ease if I just disappear?" "Will I? The urge to abandon everything and go somewhere quiet and un- known because the world is too harsh and I'm too weak to handle anything now All I want is peace, even just for once. I mean, I'm still too young for this. Do we even deserve this cruel world? Feeling numb and staring at the ceiling, wondering if this will ever end. The female rage to disappear and find new people and live a new life, but "I'm afraid that someone will take my happiness," like I just want a normal happy life. I really wish I could go somewhere.. somewhere so far away.

Not a single person pursued me to wipe my tears. "I've been wiping my own tears since I was a kid; I got me, don't worry." I grew up wherein my own fam- ily invalidated my feelings and judged me. I learned to be inde- pendent when I was a kid, and I learned to suffer alone without having a rest on a shoulder to cry on. I used to cry over every- thing and make myself calm, but now I barely cry. I even forgot how to cry because the pain Javnswrites inside me is killing me softly. I'm fighting the urge to cry, but I just physically can't. I have to wipe my own tears and tell myself that the future's going to be okay and everything's going to be okay because no one else is there for me because, at the end of the day, you only have yourself. Yet some people want me to give advice for their situation, not knowing I don't know how to comfort them because, the real thing is, I never experience the feeling of being comforted. I don't even remember the last time someone wipped my tears. Not a single person pursued me to wipe my tears. "I've been wiping my own tears since I was a kid;

"How are you? "3 words, 9 letters. How are you, really? As soonas I hear those words, I usuallysay things get better, as if I'm all better. The truth is, I am barely holding it together. but I admit that life has been heavy recently, not gonna lie. It's mentally and physically draining to the point where I wonder if I could ever survive a week without thinking of giving up when the world is so cruel and unfair, and I ask God, Where did I go wrong to deserve all of this? "Life has been heavy recently." Every time I thought that I felt better, it only made it worse. I'm living, but barely. Lately, I have been staring at the ceilings, thinking about the future, won- dering what would happen to me in the future. Will she ever be okay? Will she ever experience this feeling again? I hope she doesn't. I want this feeling to stop; I don't want to suffer from something I never talked about. But please, please, please. Let me get what I want. Let it once be me. Let me be happy so I don't have to beg. Ask God if I deserve that life once again. All I wanted was to be happy.

Today, I choose to let go. I choose to let go of the people who have let go of me. I choose to let go of people who make me overthink and question myself. I choose to let go of people who do not give me joy. Today, I choose to be happy. I choose to stay away from any kinds of toxicity. I choose to release myself from all the aches I've put myself through. I choose to give myself the love I so generously give to others. Today, I choose to stop hurting myself. I choose to follow positivity and not drown in my own sadness anymore. I choose to embrace openness and not build up walls around myself. I choose to accept and embrace my flaws and grow from them. Today, I choose to heal. I choose to forgive myself for all the mistakes I've made when I didn't know better. I choose to guard my soul. I choose to move forward. Today, I choose to be brave. I choose to say no to the things I don't want to say yes to. I choose to walk away from places I have outgrown. I choose to value my own time. Today, I choose to love myself.

Be Yourself: Don't try to be like others because you are the best version of yourself. Your uniqueness is why you Will Succeed. Ignore Negative Opinions: Don't listen to people who have nothing positive to add. The world is noisy, and everyone has opinions, but your dreams and goals are yours. Follow your inner voice and do what you need to do. Be Fearless: Approach life with courage and a sense of duty. You only live once, so be fearless in pursuing your dreams and God's purpose for you.

let the trees teach you that growth requires patience let the wind teach you that you can change direction & speed as you desire let the flowers teach you that beautiful things do not bloom all year long let the ocean teach you that you can be both calm & chaos, gentle & strong let the clouds teach you that when things get too heavy it is time to release let the stars teach you that darkness is needed to see the light let the sun teach you that no matter how long you've been hidden you will always rise again

I will forever be the one who says, "It's okay, I understand," even when my heart fractures quietly, splintering beneath the weight of unspoken pain. Behind each "It's okay, I understand" there's a hidden truth, a silent scream that goes unheard. I hold your burdens in my hands, while my own tears fall in the shadows. In your eyes, I see relief, but you don't see the cost I bear. I mend your cracks with quiet words, while my own heart crumbles piece by piece. Yet, despite the pain, I stay, the ever-patient, understanding soul. I choose to soothe your hurt with my own, to hold your world together as mine falls apart. -serene

Never invalidate what you feel or what you're going through just because someone has it worse. Don't tell yourself that you're not allowed to cry or be sad about it just because someone else is going through a tougher situation than yours. Don't suppress your emotions just because you think that the situation is not as deep as it is. Also, never invalidate your pain just because you have lots of things to be grateful for. I hope that you know how to acknowledge your emotions based on what you feel or what you're going through, not what the world dictates you to feel based on the situation you are in. It hurts, then it hurts. It makes your heart sink, then you are allowed to be sad or to cry about it. Do not invalidate your own emotions; you feel what you feel, and that's enough reason.

I hope that it brings a realization to you that when people don't respond to your messages and are not putting in the same or beyond effort, you stop making excuses. Know the difference between someone who is interested and making an effort in you and someone who never cares to reply, or even if they reply, it remains cold and effortless. You know and you feel when something is not right. You don't need to wait and make yourself continuously question your worth just because someone can't text you back. You don't need to press them even more just for them to reply. It is because giving a reply is easy when you are really interested in the person you're talking to. No matter how busy you are, you can always communicate. Know the meaning beyond the unsaid. Get the hint. There is something more than you being just seen or left unread. No reply is a reply. No response is a response.

Maybe what you need now is to take care of yourself and not commit to another relationship. Maybe what you need now is to focus on giving the love you're offering to other people to yourself. Maybe now you need to fill yourself first. That's why maybe that certain relationship doesn't last. It is because there are parts of you that you need to heal first. Instead of always giving and giving love, why not try to start investing in yourself? Why not start taking care of yourself? By the time you're able to fill yourself with so much love and care, the overflowing love is the love you'll offer to them so that you will not get drained. So that there is still love left for yourself. Sometimes, it is important to check on yourself as well. Do you take care of yourself the same way you take care of others? Do you give importance to yourself the same way you give importance to others? It is important to know when you are being drained. If you are now drained of love and energy, how can you love yourself and them? Fill yourself first with love, for you cannot give what you don't have.