Anxiety

Panik! This is the theme. I have decided that I don’t have anxiety. Why? Because thinking about whether I really had anxiety gave me anxiety. Why am I only just questioning this brand that I had so comfortably settled into? Because… Today, I witnessed a panic attack. My heart beats at breakneck speed, almost out of my chest, whenever I have to go to class. Or anywhere that isn’t my house. When I sit, my palms sweat, my eyes dance, my legs shake, and my breath becomes shallow. Sometimes, I want to run. Most times, I would gladly disappear. So, I think, “I have social anxiety.” I hate walking by the roadside. The cars scare me. I hate entering commercial vehicles. I hate being anywhere that is not my room and sometimes, even my room is unbearable, overwhelming. And, so, I think, “Maybe it’s not just social anxiety.”

But today, I saw a panic attack👉